22.03.11

yo~....
long time no come here ..~
last week im in camp ...
syok.....1st time be 1 of the committee in tat camp...
syok....reli syok...

tiz week my test paper is given back..~
oh my...my result..~no eye c..~XD
hmmm....nt bad ...~

i thnk i feel beter nw...
hmmm...mayb i concern all my feeling?!
or i have new target???(jkjk)
hmm...nt clear....
wat im thnking..?blurrrrr~
however....
im enjoying my life now....
now my lifestyle is gud!!!!!!
i hope i cn remain tiz..~<3

dn thnk too much...
oledi past...~'
let bygone be bygone...






by dhe'(00)'

~2.2.11~

everyone....happy chinese new year du...~^^
tml is the 1st day lur...
excited???haha...
im ready to get a lot of ang pau...muahaha~~~

just back form grandpa hum..
ate tuan yuan dinner o...~
n took a lot of picha..~
gt sweet feeling..~<3

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after banjir..~
my hum FINALLY clean...
=='''dn rain agn bha,..
i dun wn banjir agn ni..~
i dun wan clean my hum agn!!!argh!!!~
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i noe i cnt replace anythng~...
if others...thy will nt having any hope ..
but i ...will..
im the stupiest....
cuz im loving u...
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happy chinese new year ,everyone~=)





by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~27.1.11~

open skul almost 1 month...
time passes sooo fast...
thng past almost 1 month....
i still cnt 4gt...
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im sick in tiz whole week...wow
reli kik...my sound...
i cn speak in sexy voice....XDD
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i cnt stop wat's happening nw..
i cnt stop wat u talking thr..
if u lik to say thn nvm...
continue....
i have feel ntg with this...
mayb im oledi xi guan?
or mayb i oledi disappointed .....
wat frenship is tiz???lol.....

mayb is my fault?
or mayb im nt the one ...
mayb im nt suitable to b ur frenzz???~
fine....i noe...

i reli gt hurt with this.....:'(
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i found tat im veri tired.....
in anythng,im loser....
im losing everythng in my life...
n im trying to gt it back...
but sumthng i cnt gt it back...:(
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i love you..
tiz is the fact...
till nw it wont change....
but i found tat she love u too...
im the one left...
thr is impossible with 3 ppl in tiz
although im in love...
but i will gt out with it..
i reli .......hope tat i didnt lose u....</3
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although thr is many boys ....me(secret)
but i didnt .....
thr is no one cn replace u at all.....






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~24.1.11~

yeah!!!!
im sick!!!!!=.=
feel hot n cold...Zzzz
i cn use a roll of tissue in whole day...
even cnt speak le...
my sound soooo sexy...><'''
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hahahahhahahahaha...
wat cn i do nw?
juz laugh...
hahahahahaha...
i duno wat to do..
nw i realise tat ..
sumthng i duno is beter thn i noe....

nw i noe wat's going on...
but wat cn i do??
reli funny...
i pretend wat oso duno...
cool....~
i reli duno hw la...

feel so angry...hurt....
gv ......(secret,beter dn say out..ltr ppl say me 38)
me relii sad....:'(

whn nid me...
i'll owey thr/...
while dn nid me...
im definitely permeable...
let me disappear man....:(






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~23.1.11~

today i didint went to s.service...
because i took part in the competition at tiong hua...
after i finish,i 交流 with 2 boys from tiong hua diabolo team...
nice...~~~
n the result of the competition will be annoince on next sat..~~
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well....
i feel tat im going to sick...
soooooooooooo tired 1...
n others.......
im sick agn?!
too bad!!!!!
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i reli duno wat to do...
my life is complicated...
till i duno wat to do...
wat i nid...
all gone...
cn i cont my life without all of tiz....?
no...,i cnt..
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rmb laz yr...
i love a hillsong-name..with all i am..
after few months i didnt hear tiz songz..
cuz whn im hearing the song,i will cry..
so i stop listening to it..

but yest i heard tiz ..
i felt.......so...
thy prac once..i will cry once..=='''
the feeling so hard to say....

jesus,i believe in you
jesus,i belong to you..
you're the reason tat i live
reason tat i sing
with all i am...<3

reli love tiz song..
i felt 释放 whn im hearing tiz...
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i nid all of u...
i cnt life without all of tiz....T.T






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~22.1.11~

my phone go service le..
nid wait 1 month!!!!
mayb using my sis phone sin..
haiz
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a fake smile is hard to show out....
im trying to make a smile....
although im veri sad...
n still i try to make my smile showed on my face...
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i nvr gt to worship...
all time is crashed tgt...
T.T~~
too bad....
4gv me,jesus...
i promise i will take more time to serve u....
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im cheated by u all agn....
lol....
wat i have done???
did i do anythng wrong..?
y u guys nid to do so??/
reli disappointed....
i have ntg to say ....

im definitely a loser..
in everythng ....
im!!!
im losing everythng tat i reli nid,...







by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~21.1.11~

2day no inject..
wheee...luckily..
BUT!!!!
i gt hurt...
i plyed diabolo..
n i hit myself v it~~=='''

wat am i doin??
since tat day ...
i duno wat im doing.....~
no target no purpose....

just bcuz tat is my job..
n just do it!~
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tot i will 4gt as faz as i cn..
n nw realise tat i cnt...

i noe i hav say tiz many times...
i reli duno wat to do....
hu cn teach me??
i cnt put down...
i cnt!!!

iluwamh~






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~18.1.11~

whn i cum here..
i realise tat i have ntg to say...
sadness....

u r sick...
y dn take care urself..??
hope u cn recover soon..
god bless ....
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2day v start prac marching ...
so luan ==''''aduh...~~~

if no wrong,2mr wan 打针....
kik!!!!
i sooooooooooooo scaeT.T
scae i wil cry neh..Zzzzz

our diabolo society have been invited to perform ...
at kimfung pasar mlm..~
on 30th of january...
come n support ah.XDD
our 1st perform...^^~~
nervouss....

thanks all wat u have done for me...






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~16.01.11~

你们的世界，
我从一开始就不应该介入。

我自己做错了决定，
弄成这样的结果，
把自己搞得疯疯癫癫……
这是我自己选择的……
没怪任何人
只怪我自己太傻。

我不再相信……
我自己的决定。






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~12.01.11~

已经一个星期了
我在学校的日子
都忙忙碌碌的过
我的早餐和午餐都成了一餐
所以每一天的饮食只有两餐了
下午不是去补习，就是去开会。

我以为一切都已经在我掌控中
我已经又四五天没有哭了。
一切都很好
我已经不爱了，不想了，放下了
可是，感觉不对，感觉反对了我的想法
这几天的感觉不知如何形容
心不舒服……



直到今天，
由于一点事，
他们说了那么一句，就那么一句！~
我低下了头，眼眶湿了
这下我发现：我不会有哭了吧？
同学们都吓着了。
我的第一颗眼泪滴在眼镜镜片上。
我迅速的把眼泪不留下，把它吸回进来……
坐了下来，
他们向我道歉，我便挤起笑容说：“我没什么，不用道歉，我没事。”


假装在忙功课的我，朋友都散开了。
在这一刹那，我偷偷的跑了出课室。
到了厕所……
关上了门，眼泪开始滴了下来。
我又失去控制。
我真的拿自己没办法了。


我真的很令人讨厌，
为什么我会这样，
我讨厌我自己。
自己在哭什么都不知道。
我到底是什么？？？？？？
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我什么都不是…………

you're in my arms

and all the world is gone

the music playing on for only two

so close together

and im with you

so close to feel alive

a life goes by

romantic dreams will stop

so i bid mind goodbye and never knew

so close was waiting,waiting here with you..

and now forever i know

all that i wanted to hold you

so close to reaching that famous happy end

almost believing this was not pretend

now you're beside me and look how far we've come

so far we so close

how could i face the faceless days

if i should lose you now ??

let's go on dreaming for we know we are

so close ...so close....

and still far....><--so close

by[kuma]

07290819.53439909[14..]

~11.1.11~

11111...~5 one...
ntg to say...
just on sentences 4 myself..

think too much....~
回头看怕懦弱，往前走怕坠落……






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~7.1.11~

谈起关于你的话题
终于可以不用缺席
甚至还表现的不再关心
从前你是伤的痕迹
现在不过是场回忆
忽远 忽近

我怕的是低潮来袭
这城市那里够隐密
藏住我突然想哭的情绪
宁愿失去斗志勇气
好过和你冷战推挤
这样谁输得起

原来分手是需要练习的
等时间久了会变勇敢的
你慢慢走出 我渐渐放手
这不就是我们要的自由

原来分手是需要练习的
等伤口好了 会变轻松的
海阔天空 不残留一点痛
回头看怕懦弱 往前走怕坠落
但我一定能学会 在想你的时候 不难过……~~
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有是一首让我崩溃的歌……
在车上突然听着听着……
我又哭了……
想起了你，想起了过去……
我一直都在原地
不敢回头看，也不敢想前往……
怎么办？

为什么看到你，我会抖？
我不懂……
只要擦肩而过，我的心总跳得不停……
只要开始想念，我的泪总流个不停……

一个又一个
一次又一次
一段又一段
我不断痛哭……
但，结果也不会改变的

我一定要学习
在想你的时候 不难过……~






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~5.1.11~

hate myself
my frenship,wat's going on?
wat's happen??
i reli duno...
hw stupid am i..~
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tiz few day i gt a conclusion of my skul life...
im tryin to gt myself in bc==..
actuali im oledi in bc...
BUT thr is still gt a little time to let me take a rest or go ply....
but im going to let myself suffer in the bc ...
cuz if im bc,i feel much beter...
no nid thnk too much..

is thr anyone going to hlp me...?
i thnk no...
i gv up my hope.....
but i stiill cnt 4gt it....
im the stupidest in the world...==

suffering in the pmr uec n sum problem life......
getting crazy...






by[kuma]
07290819.53439909

~3.1.11~

my 2011 1st of school...~
hmmmm...gt a little excited...
my form teacher....teacher lim...==Zzzz

i saw a lot of parents 2day..
every yr oso lik tat~~
bcuz the form 1 studentz...
their parents sooooooo care thm..~==
hlp thm take bags..wear jacket...~n else...Zzz
wow....

my classroom is at the highest of the building...
tired..~Zzz
finali i met my fren...
long time no c..~~so mizzz u all..~kakaxx

after v hav our class meeting..
i was going to the hall...~
to do my thngssss...

n till finish skul..~
i went the prefect gathering..
thn went tt oso..
met him..~Zzz
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2mr will start our class ...
haizzz...start bc..~
i will nt oweys here le..
miss here..~

by[kuma]

07290819.53439909

~2.1.11~

哇……时间过的真快。
一刹那，我的假期已接近尾声了T.T
明天开学咯！~
明天应该是不用上课的。
12.40pm 放学……
明天将忙着招生~~
忙~忙~忙~~~

放学后，又得留在学校了。
学长团有训练课程。
真是的，第一天就得留下来了。

第二天又要开会，
女童军的迎新会~~==
接着，这个星期六课外活动后
好像有新执委会议~~
总之，忙透了~~~~~

这个星期就要开始我的吉他课程了。
band 练习也在这个星期开始~~
sienzzzzZ~~

希望大家有个愉快地开学日！！~^^

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我总爱盼望期待没有希望的事~


smile for 2mr..
work for 2mr..
wait for 2mr..
the day will come soon.....~
hope will oweys be....

by[kuma]

07290819.53439909